I insisted on building my website from scratch all by myself. I can only work on it for a few hours a week so until now it's still half-baked, haha.

It's all good though, I'm getting pretty OK at CSS and PHP, not great just OK.

I'm calculating that by the time I'm done with it, I'll be pretty much fed up from looking at the banner. Whatever, I'll do major reworking tonight and I can probably do the FTP by tomorrow night - well, fingers crossed. It's not completely done yet but the links are working..:)

Free time + Accidental hearts = first youtube attempt.

I've been seeing fun heart pictures in flickr and thought I'd make something out of them for this person I know,. I thought of putting a sappy love song as a background but couldn't find something that's not too corny so I ended up with this song. It's way different but I think way better, noh? Nyehe!

I love it when I have something to be excited about. I love it when I like something and I get cool ideas in my head and I make all sorts of plans that make me feel silly yet elated and happy. And I often have fan-friggin-tastic ideas that I first keep to myself (before other people start thinking along my lines and claim my idea as theirs). Anyways, for a few months now I've been in this state where I can't, and I mean CAN'T, get any friggin piece of inspiration and it's frustrating meh! I know I need to get the creative motors in my head up and runnign again (and soon) before they get all dull and rusted. *moans and groans* I miss it when I just do stuff because I like to and not because I have to, that's when everything just sort of flows and ideas just fill your head without you having to exert anything. Maybe I really just need to declutter my brain or something. Everything just seems tiring now, even thinking. Ho-hum...

These are what I'll [put appropriate verb/verb phrase here] this weekend:

• write
• design
• colors
• cookies
• Moleskine
• pens
• pencil
• rubber bands
• shoesie
• low-carb
• chicken
• beans
• Fit n right
• wow factor
• cooking shows
• DVD marathon
• Juno
• EMR videoke
• ping pong (?)
• coffee

I'm a pretty boring person and I probably don't have much to say since there are not many exciting things that happen to a bore. Most of the time, as some of you who know me knows, you'd look at me and get a feeling that I'm probably waiting for that life-altering experience even though I'm already 22. It's probably a spank in the head or something that would change the course of my life or at least something that would point me to where I'm suppose to go. I don't know, I don't even know if I'm ready for it. It's like I'm in this state of funk that I can't get out of ever since forever and in the process I'm letting my life pass me by. I recognize the danger and I'm even trying to fix this problem. I super-duper don't want to be a cautionary tale in the future about opportunities lost and unanswered what-ifs. Besides, I have dreams that excite me and I'm never giving those up yet and I can be stubborn so that's good. I don't know, whatever.

I know there's no use in crying over spilled milk but no milk has even been spilt and yet I feel like crying. Maybe I should have spilled some and saved some then I would not be feeling this friggin morose because I haven't done anything, anything that would make me feel less guilty now. Whatever, pleeeease talk to me 'coz there's a line in Miss Spektor's song that's playing on repeat in my head "...and it breaks my ha ha-ha ha ha ha ha ha-ha ha-ha heart!".

Seriously, YOU know who you are, I'm sorry na.

I've coded the shout outs, revamped the whole layout, fixed the darn margin problem, made the css for the fonts, borders, forms, etc.

I'm on a roll. yey. super tired. night.

[Not much. Impulse buying on ebay last week. Package arrived yesterday.]

Reading the Tao of Pooh was pretty much the highlight of my week. And to think I haven't even watched a full episode of the cartoon show. Nyehe! From now on I'll be Pooh, not the restless Rabbit nor the Fretting Eeyore. Cottleston, Cottleston, Cottleston Pie! I'm Pooh. Where can I get the Te of Piglet? GIVE me the Te of Piglet!

Oh, a new site layout. I've always wanted to do wallpapers but they never seem to match my layout. This time I like the wallpaper but I'm getting annoyed with the banner! Meh! My picture sucks! until the new one then.

Do you have those moments when you plan on doing something REALLY nice but then you think of doing it in perfect conditons and perfect means which in reality you can never really have so you end up delaying and saving it for that perfect time when you get your ducks all in a row and then you realize it's been ages and you haven't even had a remote grasp of that perfect time and end up doing nothing at all and then some inner voice in your head YELLS that you should have just done it in the first friggin place?!!

My website is up again. I don't have to get it perfect, I just have to get it going.